Have you ever been having a conversation with me and I just steamrolled you, mid sentence, no apologies, you need to listen to ME now? Dear god, I cringe. And I apologize. Crap, I'm an ass.
See, I never realized I did that until yesterday. No really, I had no clue. The way I found out was my boss had to tell me to shut up and let him finish. Okay, so he didn't say shut up, but he did have to tell me to let him finish. At first I was a bit shocked, "How dare he tell me to let him finish!" But then I realized "Holy crap I need to let him finish!" I sat there for the rest of the time he was speaking, nodding occasionally, waiting patiently for my turn. It was probably the first time I ever waited for my turn to speak.
I can honestly say I have no idea how long I've interrupted people like this. I think it happens when I'm trying to make a point that I understand what we are talking about. Or if I think I have more information on the subject and you need to know it rightthissecondnoitcannotwait. Or if I just want you to shut up.
I'm going to try to control this urge from now on, but I'm not sure how successful I'll be. Yesterday afternoon, the same afternoon that he had to tell me to let him finish, I ran all over my boss again. But, at least this time I recognized I was doing it. And I kinda cut myself short. And then I tried to sit there nodding until he was done. Nod nod nod It just seems so pointless. And condescending. Nodding adds nothing! But I will do it. I must do it!
I'll probably only succeed at this if I buy myself a muzzle. Or a ball gag. That would totally keep me quiet.