The other day I mentioned on twitter that I had been rejected from a playgroup:
What I didn't mention on there was that a few days later I got rejected from another playgroup. I have managed to join one playgroup that didn't have an application that I can blow but the playdate I attended was filled with babies all six or more months younger than Truman. All the other moms happily sat in the shade of the park holding bottles and chatting about how their tiny non-moving babies could still go to movie theatres and sleep through the movie or they could take the baby to dinner and the child would gladly sleep in his car seat the whole meal. I spent the whole playdate chasing Tru through the park while he shoved a sub sandwich into his mouth and I occasionally got close enough to the other moms to shout a hello in their direction.
I hate to be all mommyblogger on you, but lately I'm feeling like less of a person and more of a mom than I have since Truman was born. In California I was able to incorporate motherhood into my life thanks to friends that loved Tru and didn't mind him tagging along for lunch or shopping trip as well as a mother's group that allowed me to hang out with other women that were dealing with the same sort of things I was. Here in Austin, we have some friends with babies but we don't see them nearly as often as I saw my previous mother's group. I'm learning how quickly you can lose your mind when all you have to talk to for 9 hours a day is a little person that can't answer you. I'm unfortunately becoming that person that talks way too much to the cashiers at the mall.
I don't really know where this pity party is going but I feel much better having it all out there. I've been rolling the idea of finding a part time job around in my head for the past few weeks because that would guarantee me opportunities to interact with other adults but I don't think that's really the best solution. I think Truman needs to hang out with other kids as much as I need to hang out with adults so we're going to start hitting the playgroups hard to see if we can find one that won't kick us out before they even get a chance to harshly judge us. Wish us luck.